=life lately=

Hello my friends. Lately things have been a little crazy and hectic here at the Carey household. Lets start about a month ago. Michael and I have been noticing one of Hailey's eye's starting to turn in. After a bit of wondering and watching, my sister and her daycare provider both mentioned something to us. So, we finally made an appointment for her. I took her to a great pediatric doctor today and confirmed that what we were seeing was in fact what we were seeing. Dr. Haws told me that what she has is called Esotropia. She said that it's obvious she has a hard time seeing out of her left eye and is really farsighted. There are two ways of correcting this: 1. glasses and 2. surgery. Glasses don't always correct it, but it's what we are trying first. We ordered them today and trying them out for about a month. After which we will go see her again and she'll then decide if she needs to add a bifocal or not. After some time with glasses, we'll see if it's fixing the issue. May or may not be corrected permanently, we'll see. If the glasses don't work, she'll have to have surgery. So, here's praying that the glasses are the fix she needs...

Next subject. On Tuesday night, Michae's car was broken into here at the apartment complex. Cool. April fools! Yeah, I wish. Luckly, he parked next to the only video camera we have here. So, we have footage. From the looks of it, the guy knew what he was doing. He broke the back right window and took some clothing and Michael's work briefcase. Thank goodness he didn't take the stereo, xbox games or the car seat. However, it did cost us almost $300 to fix the window. Needless to say, all of this really stressed Michael out and of course, made me worry. Ugh...I'm just glad it wasn't worse than it was.

Now onto me. I was told by a theropist that I have anxiety disorder. I knew I had problems with anxiety, but I didn't really realize that I actually had the disorder. This link I just posted is me....nothing said in this website is untrue. EVERYTHING pertains to me. I read it yesterday at work and started crying. The last couple weeks, I felt like I was doing great. Hailey has been EXTREMELY hard to handle, even worse than before. However, I had been handling it well, not losing my temper as much and really working with her with it all. Then...Tuesday night happened. I melted. I came home, Hailey was difficult, things were all over the place, unorganized, dirty, cluttered, no counter space to cook, etc. Everyday I work extremely hard, way too much and then I come home very night and clean. I clean up the same things every day. The house is clean when I go to bed and I come home and it's a mess again. That night, it hit me and things just weren't working for me, and then....something fell on my toe. Yep, that did it. I completely lost it. Cried hysterically for 45 minutes and finally called my mom...still crying hysterically. She was only a couple blocks away thankfully...she came right over, took over dinner and Hailey and made me go take a bubble bath. I've kind of taken a step back from things at work (with manager's approval), I've asked for more help around the house, etc. I'm doing alright, but still not the best. It's like, I kind of needed the breakdown in a way. Helped me realize just how much I stress about things. Does that mean it will change overnight? Heck no! Lol....but at least I'm aware.

Well, that's all the updates for now. I'm about to head out to visit the mom-in-law with some bailey's brownies and booze!